76 Year Old Remembers Gun to Her Head For Choosing Life After Rape

76 year old remembers choosing life


76 year old mother, Patricia Lawrence went into the Army hoping to find stability.  Little did she know that the battle would be for her own life and the life of her son. Pat joined the Women’s Army and was sent to Fort McClellan in Anniston, Alabama. An innocent double date turned into a nightmare. Hers was a blind date. That night “blind date” would take on a deeper meaning. Drugged and raped Pat was “blinded” to all that went on that night. She would remember nothing even to this day at the age of 76. Two weeks after her date she fainted. Shocked when the doctor told her she was pregnant she said, “I can’t be pregnant because I have not done anything to become pregnant.” She was discharged from the Army but the battle didn’t end there. Pat moved back with her mother who pressured her to abort her baby. She stood strong refusing to comply, choosing life after rape. Pat firmly believed it was murder and would have no part in an abortion. Her mother however was determined to get her way and destroy this rape conception.



[dropshadowbox align=”center” effect=”lifted-both” width=”auto” height=”” background_color=”#ffffff” border_width=”1″ border_color=”#dddddd” ]    Pat awoke one day to find a gun one inch from her face pointed right between her eyes. Her mother was holding the gun[/dropshadowbox]

Pat awoke one day to find a gun one inch from her face pointed right between her eyes. Her mother was holding the gun. Pushing the gun away she asked her mother, “What do you think you’re doing?” to which her mother replied, “I am trying to frighten you so much you will miscarry the child.” Pat left her mother’s home and went to stay with her sister who tried to get Pat to take a handful of pills saying, “Mom says you are to take these all at once.” Well Pat threw them in the toilet. She later discovered had she taken those pills she would have died of a massive heart attack.


Pat is not alone in the abuse she received for choosing life after rape. While many are told they are liars the pressure to abort because of rape is overwhelming. This is the real “War on Women” rarely addressed.


Pat finally found refuge with the Salvation Army working in the laundry room to pay for her stay. There were bible studies too where Pat learned about God and as she says on her website: “I saw how God had saved Paul,even though he had been such an awful sinner, so I began to think there might be hope for me as a sinner.”


[dropshadowbox align=”center” effect=”lifted-both” width=”auto” height=”” background_color=”#ffffff” border_width=”1″ border_color=”#dddddd”]                     Giving up this son for adoption was and still is one of the hardest things I have ever had to do in my life.[/dropshadowbox]
Giving birth was another traumatic experience for Pat because they strapped her arms down outward from her body. She would once again have a “blind date” as a towel was placed over her face so she would be unable to see her baby. Her son born in St. Louis in 1958, was 9lbs and 23 inches. She didn’t see him at birth but she did walk to the nursery to look at him. It would be another 35 years before she would see him again. “Giving up this son for adoption was and still is one of the hardest things I have ever had to do in my life,” Pat says even today. She went back to live with her mother after she gave birth. The abuse continued with her mother taunting her saying,”now you will never find a decent man to marry you.”  She wasn’t allowed to ever talk about her son. She moved on with her life moving to CA. but she never forgot the son she bore through rape conception.


She used an agency to find her son. And just over a year later she had his phone number. She asked everyone what she should do and they all said they couldn’t answer so she asked God. “It was like God slapped me on the head and said, ‘I’ve given you all this information. Call him.” And she did. Their relationship is a good one and she’s forever grateful for being able to have this son. She has 3 daughters also and now her family is complete. She says,”The thing that I want people to know is that even though I didn’t know God at the time I did know that He would make everything right.” And He has. She goes on to say, “Every life is a gift from God and to destroy that life is a crime against God!”

Pat says, “Over the years since the adoption I always prayed his life had been a good life. I prayed he knew the Lord as his Savior, I prayed for the mom and dad who raised him. My family knew about my giving the son up for adoption. So, they were understanding on his birthday knowing I would be in a bit of a reflective mood.

Pat has never regretted choosing life after rape.

Pat says that you can email her patricia.lawrence92@yahoo.com Please indicate Choices4Life in the subject line.

Patricia Lawrence loves to share God’s love with anyone who will listen. Her enthusiasm for life is contagious. Her story was featured in the radio drama Unshackled Just scroll down to find her name and the program.As a writer and poet Pat expresses her passion in words beautifully. Here’s one poem called Adoption.


I went through the labor,
But never held him in my arms,
As I gave him for adoption,
So others saw his childhood charms.
But it has always been my prayer,
That all these years he did know,
It was because I loved him,
That I had to let him go.
He has a special mother,
To care for him I’m sure,
And the love she has for him,
Is one that will endure.
Though I never held him,
Or saw his boyish smile,
I have always loved him,
And hope to see him in a while.
In a while in Heaven,
Just through the pearly gates,
When we are together,
Where our loving Savior waits.
© Patricia Lawrence

7 thoughts on “76 Year Old Remembers Gun to Her Head For Choosing Life After Rape”

    1. Thank you Ron Shultz, for the delightful response to my story. I have been blessed by God well beyond measure all my life. I have had to continue to be a good soldier, now for God my Commander-in-Chief. I look forward to the time when He calls me before Him and I receive any rewards He might want to bestow upon me. I just want to hear Him say, “Well done good and Faithful servant soldier.”
      Until that day I will keep my uniform of forgiveness on, having on my feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace and keep my shield of faith at the ready, so I may stay in step with His commands. God bless. Patricia

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